Lost

Once in my life there was a single almighty god. One to fear.

Fear also makes people do evil things.

I asked: How come others believe in other god? Are they all wrong and how do we know we are right? No real answer.

Then I thought as a kid, I guess we all believe in same god. God has different names.

Stupid people fighting about who owns the true god.

This one god does seem to have different books under different names. That does not make sense.

Maybe only one of these books is the real book, but which one, and which version?

Reading the books….none of them makes much sense today. Is this suppose to be the truth or only fictional stories to teach us morals?

Those books are definitely not the truth. Earth is 4.54 billion years old and we came from apes. I can see the proof myself.

Having morals written in a book seems good.

But, should I apply them as they are? "He who blasphemes the name of the Lord shall be put to death” (Lev. 24:16)

God seems egocentric with these statements.

No morals from a book, except this one thing called love: "But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also.”

“Love your neighbour as yourself” - I like that.

That is nice! How come so few religious people do this?

Non-religious people suppose to be evil and will go te hell, but they seem ok.

I’m lost. “You will find yourself in the book” they say.

But, I don’t want to be found. I like to be lost and forever search for answers myself.

There is nothing wrong with being convinced with proof, logical arguments and statements derived from universal values: respect, compassion, love.

This search makes me become less ignorant. Ignorance is the only true cause of bad things in world.

The same thing that reveals so many untruths to me, might reveal my own truth.

In the eye of the beholder...